Oh Noooooooo!

[blackberry444]

I had a letter from the Specialist Diabetic Registrar today, in which she states that she has discussed me with my consultant and they've decided I would be suitable to receive a new-to-me drug, which I would have to inject twice daily. She hasn't said what the drug is called, although I don't think it's insulin, since we talked briefly about this at my last appointment a couple of weeks ago.  She's asked the specialist diabetes nurse to contact me and "initiate treatment".

Now I'm a bit upset about this.  I already told her that I'm unhappy about injecting myself twice a day and would prefer to stay on tablets, but in any case, I thought we had agreed that I would try to reform my eating, which has got a bit less controlled than it was, owing to my depression, would take an extra tablet each day, and see how my HbA1C would be at my next appointment in January.  I explained to her that what with the cardiac rehab and seeing the psychologist, I felt I already had enough to cope with regarding my health, without any further difficult changes and I thought she had understood and agreed with me.

I know it's childish to be scared of doing my own injections, but I'm worried about things like clean needles, and whether it will be necessary to keep medication in the fridge, not to mention the possibility that I might have to inject in front of someone else.  Tablets don't have any of these problems.  On the other hand, she said in her letter that this medication might help me lose weight, which is very difficult for me with my other physical limitations.

I was feeling so much happier and now I feel upset and scared.  I don't even know what the drug is called so that I can look it up.

Charles had a call from his mental Elf today suggesting that he applied for DLA.  He's very grumpy about it, although I'm not sure why;  he says he doesn't really know why she suggested it and has been making remarks about being "mad".  She's bringing someone to see him.

I have to go and watch Spooks now.  I hope I sleep better tonight that I did last night, because I had all sorts of plans about what I was going to do today and I haven't done any of it, having had about three hours' sleep.

Comments

[hooloovoo_42]

Surely you don't have to take this new drug? When the nurse calls, explain this to her and ask if she can get the docs to understand. Being railroaded into a treatment you're not happy with won't do your health any good anyway.

[blackberry44.livejournal.com]

Oh I plan to speak to her about it when she phones. I shall also ask her what it's called, so that I can find out about it independently.

[oldbloke.livejournal.com]

They can't /make/ you take it.

[blackberry44.livejournal.com]

I know, but I don't feel up to confrontation, either.

I shall discuss it with my lovely lady GP after I've spoken to the nurse.

[oldbloke.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I guessed. Just giving a bit of support for when you get to talk about it with them. Your GP can influence the decision, so do talk to her.

[k425.livejournal.com]

What they said. Saying you're suitable for treatment isn't the same as saying you have to have it. And you're allowed to say "thanks but no thanks". It would be a big change and whether you decide to go with it or not, you are naturally going to be concerned and anxious about it.

[cat63.livejournal.com]

What they said. Don't let them intimidate you into accepting this. I know it's difficult but I'm sure they'd see your point of view if you talk to them about it.

[incognitas.livejournal.com]

Who are you?What have you done with my sister?

Seriously this doesn't sound like you at all.You usually stand up for yourself..I've never known anyone to be able to 'make' you do anything you don't wish to do.

Now that's the pep talk over.

I also know that you never make a decision until you have weighed all the pros and cons and that means that you usually listen to all the advice you can get before making up your mind.I'm sure you will keep an open mind about what is being offered because it might make your condition easier to manage.Surely you would like to feel so much better than you do at present?

[blackberry44.livejournal.com]

Who are you?What have you done with my sister?

I know. Feeble, aren't I?

I've decided to keep an open mind about it, but I'm not going to agree to it, or not, until I've been able to research it a bit and since I don't yet know what it is, I can't do that. My decision will also depend on how easy this stuff is to keep and administer.

The nurse hasn't even contacted me yet, so it's a good job I got my prescription refilled on Monday, isn't it?